her name is...

i really don't have a name for my baby yet... i waited patiently to have her.
i imagined how she'd look like, how it would feel when i'm finally holding her with my own hands.
it gives me both fright and uttermost anticipation.

so many questions, i would immediately ask myself. would i be responsible enough to care for her? am i capable to doing measures that would keep her safe and completely unscathed? would i understand her? know her limitations and her frailties?

and i am completely sure that she won't be that easy to handle.
there might be days i might totally won't get her, and in frustration, i might let go of her.
if she falls, but i do hope she would never, i wont surely know what to do!

i wish there's an easier manual to know everything, and understand everything about her.
but no manual can ever determine or establish my own relationship with her.

so what am i to do now.
i chose to have this responsibility and i admit, its not easy.
im going out of my wits.


but i am not going to quit until i finally master this damn camera!


seriously...? what else would it be?


;)


xoxo,


A.